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Aaron teaches
English by day and somehow finds time to write between grading papers and
changing diapers at night. He
currently resides in
Aaron Polson
Elliot
stood at the back of his car, opened the trunk, and peered inside as he folded
his arms and weighed his next action carefully.
A small cardboard box and a black guitar gig bag lay on top of stacks of
old newspapers, fast food bags, and other random debris.
His left hand dropped to his side, and his index finger traced the edges
of the Zippo lighter in the front pocket of his jeans. The early summer air hung
cool about him, watching in blue silence.
Stars would soon appear, and dreaming became easy when you could see the
stars.
He
thought about the box and the guitar and turned his head slightly to look behind
him across a small grassy stretch of park toward a concrete picnic table about
twenty yards away. His best friend,
Ben, had called that table the Altar of the Rock Gods during their junior year
when they would come to the park on a weekend night and smoke or drink,,
depending on their luck and what was available. Their
buzzing synapses and wavering perceptions conjured dreams of teeming masses of
groupies; they were sure to be famous one day, once they left
Elliot
rubbed his fingers together, feeling the smooth calloused tips from years of
relentless fretting. He decided to
take the cardboard box out first, as it was wedged against the guitar in the
trunk. The guitar, his old Gibson
SG, represented two long summers of shoveled horse shit and cut thistles.
The old man at the stables reluctantly paid him five dollars for each
hour under the slow burning sun and the thick dusty gloom of the stagnant barn.
The job paid cash, easily taken under the table and saved in an old shoe
box under Elliot’s bed. At the pawn
shop, the fat man with a greasy smile counted each small bill twice as Elliot
twitched with the urge to feel the guitar, stroke the neck and weigh it in his
hands.
She’s a real beauty, Uncle Eli had
said when Elliot brought it home.
He looked
into the now open cardboard box as it sat on top of the concrete table.
Reaching inside, he lifted a full plastic container of charcoal lighter
fluid. He stared at the container, contemplating the plastic bottle in his hand
and set it on the table. Two silver cans of Pabst Blue Ribbon remained in the
box, but he didn’t need those yet, so he moved the box off the table and onto
the ground. Ben always preferred
Pabst when they had a choice.
They had
wasted evenings jamming in his mom’s garage—a deal Elliot negotiated during his
senior year. He would stop smoking
and drinking, and she would let them convert the garage into a studio for the
band. Ben played bass guitar, the
soul of the music he called it, and Elliot always liked to argue that the lead
guitar, the voice and personality, was more important.
Uncle Eli, their musical mentor, just laughed as the boys verbally
sparred over each instrument’s relative value. He
was only nine years older than Elliot and a practiced guitarist—Elliot’s
inspiration for learning to play.
Elliot
pulled the gig bag out of the trunk, heavy with the SG comfortably nestled
inside. He remembered the first time
Uncle Eli handed him a guitar, teaching him to hold the instrument and how to
place his hands. Those lessons took
place before his uncle’s National Guard unit left for
Laying
the guitar bag on the concrete slab in front of him, Elliot unzipped the case
and gently lifted the Gibson one last time.
The instrument knew him, responding to his touch like a lover, purring in
his hands. He lay the guitar down on
top of the flayed bag, both resting on the table.
A shiver shook Elliot that had nothing to do with the breeze; the guitar
looked a little sad lying there in the fading twilight.
The last time Elliot sat on that picnic table he was alone, drinking most of a twelve pack without assistance, brooding bitterly over Ben’s decision to enlist. He assured himself Ben’s decision was guided by his girlfriend Hannah. He remembered the red, selfish anger that pushed at his chest when Ben told him that he signed up. They’ll help with school, he’d said. Hannah thinks it’s a good idea, he’d said. Elliot just wanted to beat and beat, flail his arms into the walls until they ran red. He thought of his uncle, all the years scheming with Ben, and the investment in a planned musical payoff.
Childish dreams, Ben said.
Elliot
remembered that night, drinking alone at the park, and how he drove home, the
road alive and serpentine, evading his car as he was fuzzy and drunk.
While he dangerously meandered the two miles of empty highway back to
town, Ben and Hannah bled on the cold dark
The last
words Elliot spoke to his friend became bitter, selfish ashes.
Elliot
doused the guitar with the entire bottle of lighter fluid, the pungent stench
dissipating into the
He sat on
the grass and watched the flames spit dark chemical smoke into the air, pouring
out one can for Ben and the other for himself.